Have you ever had someone you know close to you pass away? Have you ever had that heavy oit in your stomach? Have you wanted to call them but have not been able to? Have you accidently said their name when they are no longer around? It could be a human or it could be a pet but when that thing passes on we all have grief in our hearts which is so hard to bear. We don’t know where to turn, we don’t know what to do and we don’t know how to react. Grief is different for so many people and it can sometimes even be delayed. Grief is hard and loosing someone that you were close to can be even harder. Whatever the age a person was can be hard but if you think they were far too young it can be even worse.
A few years ago many of you will remember we had the Covid-19 pandemic and we lost so many people that we knew. We had friends who suffered, we had people who knew who suffered and some people even lost family members due to the pandemic. I think I can say that 2020 was a year that was hard for so many people. We missed loved ones because we could not be with them, we even had to spend Christmas in our own households, we were not able to go out with our friends, we were not able to see those people that we really wanted to and it was hard-we missed them. Missing someone can be because you are not able to see them for a long while or that they have passed on and the latter is worse than anything else.
11 years ago yesterday we had to say goodbye to someone who was very close to our hearts. We lost someone who so many people loved and we lost someone who we never wanted to leave. This person was my maternal grandfather. It was hard and it still is hard today to know that I will never be able to see him again, I will never be able to talk to him again and I will never be able to laugh with him! He was a character and I loved him so so much. He was a such a real gentlemen and he provided a laugh to everyone and was such a teddy bear! He knew when to give us a hug and he knew when we needed to talk. He was such a gem and so precious to us but now he is gone and it is hard not to have him around.
I loved my grandad, he was one of a kind, he was someone I could rely on and someone that would make me laugh. It was truly hard loosing someone so close to me but I have learnt so many lessons from it. I now know what grief is all about, I know how other people are feeling when they loose someone, I know how grief works and I know that loosing someone can be hard for years and years to come. Grief is something that comes and goes, something that can come at times when you least expect it. There are somethings that can set me of when I least expect it and sometimes I can hardly continue with the day as I miss him so much. However, I know that whatever life throws at me I know that my Grandad is now at home with God and He is now in heaven. I know that one day I will see my grandad again but for the meantime God will be with me every step of the way.
Grief may be hard and missing someone may be even harder for us but through everything God will be with us, God will be with us through the highs and lows, God will be with us through the ups and downs, God will be with us through the deaths and new born, God will be with us through the separations and the times we are together, God will be with us through this year and the next, God will be with us through everything. No matter what you went through yesterday, what you are going through today or what you will go through tomorrow God will be with you. He will be with you through everything and there is one thing that you have to do and that is to totally trust in you.