Blog 414: Missing my baby

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Have you ever lost a pet? It was about 8 years ago that I lost my fur baby and it was one the saddest day of my life! It was hard to loose my fur baby, I had, had him for about 10 years and he was my baby. I had him in my arms almost all the time, I had a lead for him so we could go in and out of the house, I had him in the garden with me, I had him out every time that I could and it was amazing. He became my support animal without really realising it, I was able to talk to him more than anyone else, I know that he could not answer back but he seemed to know when I was sad and he was there when no one else was. He was so cute and really was my baby and I loved him so much. My baby flake was amazing and I could not have done half of my life without him!

Loosing a pet can be hard and it can be a blessing too. With me it was really hard but I was heading for my gap year for 6 months a week later so the silver lining was that it was a blessing and I didn’t have to miss him as much as I would have if he was alive. I am not saying that it wasn’t hard, it was hard, it was hard to loose my baby, it was hard not to have him there when I got back. Everyday I got out of bed I expected to go and check on him but that ended so quickly, I went to go and put him in the garden but that all ended so quickly. It was a shock, the things I did everyday seemed to go so quickly! It was such a heartbreak to say goodbye to him so quickly-one moment he was healthy and the next thing I knew was that he was not alive and I had to continue with my life.

As much as it was hard it was a blessing too, I did not have to worry about him went I went abroad, I was able to look back on all the times I was able to have with him, I was able to have him while I was at school, home schooled and then through college which was a real blessing as they were some of my hardest times. So many people ask me how I could love a rabbit so much because he was just a rabbit but he was so calm, he had a personality, he was cheeky and I know this because I was his mamma! It has been hard to move on and I will never be able to replace him as he was my very first pet and a little animal that I had to look after and take care off no matter how I felt and what the weather was. Whenever I was down he would cheer me up just by me giving him a cuddle, he really did change my life all for the better and I am so grateful for all the time that I was able to have with him.

I am so thankful for the time that I have been able to have with him but I know now that I have to focus on the present and the future. I am not saying that I will get rid of all of his memories but I will be able to move on with my life. I will be able to know that the time I had with him was amazing but also I do need to move on and not to hold onto the past things that have happened to me. I know that my rabbit was part of my journey and now he is gone, we had a wonderful life together and we were able to go through so much but now it is my time to continue. I am to continue with whatever my life will hold, whether that be getting another pet, moving house, having a baby, going abroad I know that life will be full of adventure and it will be amazing to see what the future brings.

I know that the future will be good because God has a plan for me. He planned for when I got my rabbit and He planned for when it was time for him to pass away. He knows that sometimes I will miss him and other times it will be hard but he also know that it will be good for me to focus on the future. God has different plans for each and everyone one of us and we need to trust that He is fully in control of everything that we do!

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