As a young women I often find it hard to believe in myself, I find it hard to let other people love me, I find it hard to know that God loves me. To be honest I find it really hard to do and feel a lot of things and because of that life is hard and life can be long. I know that I will get through life but it is hard for me to let go and to let people love me as I am and what is good for me. I often look at myself, my past, my baggage, my heart, my body and often wonder how anyone can love me let alone how God can love me. I know that every parent loves there child, but that is to be expected but they are meant to love their child aren’t they? Parents don’t watch their children all the time but when I really look at myself and try and see what God sees I wonder how he could love me.
I wonder how God can love me, someone who talks behind peoples back, who gets angry easily, who talks under her breath, who gets mad, who thinks wrong thoughts, who is tempted, who can be selfish. When I think about it it, it really is hard to comprehend and it amazes me that through all that I have done God still loves me and He will continue to do so no matter what I do. God’s love for me does not depend on how I live but because of His unconditional love for everyone. I know that I am not easy to love, I know that I am not the best friend, I know that I am not super skilled, I know that I am not overly intelligent, I know that I am not beautiful, I know that I am not the most attractive but no matter what other people think of me and no matter what I think about myself I know that I am loved by God and wanting to be loved by other people is not something that I should hold onto.
I know I am able to be the person that I am able to be because of God’s grace. I know that through God’s grace I am saved, I am loved, I am part of His family, I am adopted, I am accepted, I am certain of who I am. I know that when I am not confident in myself I can come to God and through His grace I know that I am loved. I know that what I am having a bad day I am loved by God. I find it hard to continue sometimes, I feel that I am not pretty, that I am not worthy of love and so much more but you know what I can relax because of God’s grace and He knows everything about me. He knows what is going to happen in 10 years time and isn’t that wonderful! I may be afraid of what the future holds and I may not know what is going to happen but I know that God is fully in control and through His grace we will be able to do anything with His strength.
We often find it hard to know that we are full of God’s grace and we are able to do all things through Him. We may have been ‘programmed’ to do things in our life, we may find it hard to feel our true feelings, we may want to be loved but have not had people around us who have shown us, we may be a little bit more ‘special’ compared to our peers but overall we need to know that through God’s grace we are able to do so many things. We need to know that God is God, He could have made us slaves, He could have made our lives so much harder than it is, He could have left us alone but instead He has offered a way out and He will adopt us into His family.
In order to be part of God’s family thankfully we do not need to be beautiful, we do not need to be intelligent, we do not need to be rich, we do not need to have loads of friends, we do not need to have many possessions, we do not need to have family, we do not need to have the brains, we do not need to have the latest fashion, we do not need to have anything except from belief and acceptance. We need to accept God’s grace and He will give it to us as long as we have an open heart and are willing to open ourselves up to God.