So today is my 302nd blog and when I first started blogging I didn’t think I would get to 10 let alone 302! I didn’t realise how relaxing it would be to write blogs and to get so many of my thoughts and feelings on paper. When I first started writing blogs I didn’t realise the amount of people that would read them and how many people I have reached all across the world. It has been so good to reach so many people, to see what they have learnt and how I can learn from other people. It has also been so good to look back on the past years and to see how far I have come both in my physical life but also my mental life too. When I first started my blogging journey I was a young single adult and now I am married and planning on starting my own family soon. The journey has not been an easy one but I wouldn’t have it any other way as I have learnt so much about myself and about other people.
When I started blogging I had so many ideas that I wanted to put down on paper that it was hard to stop myself from publishing them all at the same time. However, it was good to have a schedule and to be able to know what I was writing about and when. It really helped to have so much encouragement from the first blog that I was able to write other ones afterwards. There is no magic in writing my blogs, I just writing what I am thinking and publish it, if people don’t like it so be it but if they do I am thrilled and it helps me to keep on going. I am so thankful for all the support that I have been able to have and all the love that has helped me to keep on writing my blogs. I know there are some blogs that I have wanted to change around and some I have done but also I have left others as they are because that is how I was feeling when I wrote them. I don’t want to erase my feelings and thoughts. I want to look back on them and know what I was feeling and what was going on in my life at that point.
From all the blogging I have done I have been so blessed to have so many people read them and from all around the world. I hope I have been able to encourage them when things have got hard, to help them keep on going when things get tough, to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Just because I blog does not mean that I have my life together, if you were to observe me for a day it would be very different to the person I put online. I do however, try and keep my feelings raw as much as possible, somethings I am unable to put down because of political correctness but I always put how I am feeling and not what other people think. I want to keep them as raw as possible so then people going through a similar thing will be able to help themselves and they know that they can keep on going no matter what life throws at them.
I know that through my blogging life people have been able to learn so much about me and the way that I live but I have also been able to learn so much about other people and how they live too. I have been able to learn so much about the journey that I have been able to go on, the joys in life, the hardships in life, the troubles, the relationships. Some days have been harder than others but I am thankful that I have been able to have them because I have been able to grow as a person, I have been able to see the good in things in all that I have been able to do, I have been able to work on myself and other relationships. I have been able to grow into a better person because I have been able to put all my thoughts on paper.
Writing 302 blogs has been hard work but I would not have it any other way. I would not want to change the way that I have lived my life and I would not have been able to do any of this without my friends and family around me. I know that they have been able to support me but also God has helped me to grow, He has made me more like Him, He has made be believe in myself, He has helped me to love Him and other people around me more. I am so thankful that God has been beside me through lives ups and downs.