Today was the day when I was meant to be seeing my sister walk down the aisle, today was the day when I was meant to be bridesmaid, today was the day when we were meant to be together, today was the day when we were meant to be having a celebration, today was the day when everyone was happy, today was meant to be the day when we saw family who we had not seen in a long time but it is not today. Instead today is the day when my sister is not getting her dress on, she is with her fiance but not surrounded by friends, today is the day when we have to all be in our own houses, today is the day when we have a take out instead of a nice meal, today is the day when we watch TV and not a wedding take place, today is the day when people are missing out, today is the day that has to be put back and today is the day that was meant to be but will not be. Today will be know as the day it was meant to be but is not going to be. Today will be hard for my sister and future brother in la but they need to know that we are all thinking of them and we are all sad for them.
Doesn’t this sound familiar? There have been loads of weddings that have not been able to take place this last year because of the Covid-19 pandemic but normally most families would just have one wedding but for our family we have now had three that have not fully gone to plan! First it was mine, then my brothers and now my sisters. When we first all got engaged we would never have thought that we would have to delay our wedding and we would all have to have a smaller one than what we wanted. Weddings are such an amazing thing and so heart-breaking when we are not able to have a small one let alone none.
It is such a hard thing to plan and organise a wedding and then we are not able to have it. I can only imagine what my sister is thinking right now, she should be a Mrs, she should have married her love of her life, she should be heading of for honeymoon but instead she is still engaged and wondering what the future will hold-will this pandemic ever stop? Will she ever be able to get married? Should she have done something different? What is going to happen when the rules ease? When will she be able to get married? These are such hard answers that won’t be able to be answered until the proper time because we just don’t know.
We don’t now how long this pandemic is going to last, we don’t know when the vaccines will reach everyone, we do not know how many people are going o die, we do not know what the future has in store for us and we do not know what God is planning. However, what I do know is that God is fully in control and He knows when things are going to end and He knows what our thoughts are. My sister may not know what the future holds in regards to her wedding but what she does know is that she has been saved by God and she will live with Him forever in eternity. This is not the day she would have planned but God knew that it was coming up and as much as He looks after us He will look after my sister too.
There are so many people in the last year and a bit where plans have had to change, plans have had to be cancelled and so many family members have gone without being able to see each other. The last 15-16 months or so have been hard and it has been hard not to see those people that we love but we know that we are able to trust and rely on God fully and even though we may not see it now God does have a plan for us and He is working out everything for our good. It maybe that when my sister is able to get married she can have a bigger and better wedding, she can be with those people she loves without the risk of bringing harm to them and she can relax and know that this was the plan.
One thought on “Blog 237: Not today”
In agreement with you. To know that we are in God’s plan, is good! To know that He is mindful of us, is good! To know that He knows what is best for us, is good! Thank you, Father, that we can agree that You are in control and knows what is best for us.
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