There have been so many times when I have looked back and seen what has happened in my life, what I have been through, who I have been with, the people who have come in and out of my life, how my life has changed, the people I have come in contact with, who I have dealt with and I am surprised at what has happened in my life and the journey that I have come through to be where I am now. The journey has been hard and the race has been long but I know that it has been worth it and I am finally happy with who I am and what I am doing with my life. I know that God has a plan in my life and I know that God will provide me with everything I have no matter what happens. God created me and He will look after me. I don’t know what His plan is for my life but what I do know is that God will guide me through life and put people in my life who will help me and support me.
Every time something happens in my life I am amazed at how I cope with it, every time I have wanted to end my life some one has stopped me, every time my emotions are out of tune I know that there are people worse than me, every time a person walks out of my life I know there are others that want to be in my life, every time I feel useless I know that I am useful, every time I feel unloved I know that God loves me, every time I feel mad I know I can be calm, every time I feel sick I know I will be well, every time I feel rubbish I know I am better, every time I feel lonely I know that I am not lonely. I know that through all things God helps me and I am in Gods plan and He knows what he is doing in my life and I am so grateful.
I know that not everything is perfect in my life. There are many things that are not perfect in my life and I am not perfect but in Jesus I am. I know I am not the person that I should be and not the person that I have been. I am gradually changing and many things are different to the way things I expected but I know that it is part of God’s plan and He knows the best thing that He is doing. God is the one who can help me to change and has helped me to be the person I am now. God has helped me to be the person who cares for others, who looks out for others, who protects others, who shows love to others, who wants to keep in contact with friends, who make sure that others are put first- I never used to be this way but God has made me a better person and I am so blessed.
Over time my walls have been built up because I have been hurt so much but now God is gradually pulling them down and He is helping me to be more open to other people. He knows what He is doing and He knows that I need my walls to be broken so that I am able to move on with my life. I know that with all the bricks gradually being taken down I will be vulnerable. I know that God will help me and He will put the people around me to help and support me. I know that God will protect me and everything that happens in my life is part of His plan on my life. God knows what He is doing and His plan is perfect no matter how I feel and no matter what goes on in my life.
In life there are so many things that don’t go my way, there are so many things that happen that I don’t agree with, there are so many things that happen that I don’t understand but what I do know is that Gods plan is the best. No matter what happens in life and what plans go on I know that God is in charge and He will help me to stay close to Him no matter what happens. Gods plan is better than any other plan a person can put together and I will be blessed because of it.
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God is a planner. One of the podcasts “Where is God in This” connects to what you said. We must have been in “that space” of relying more and more on Him.
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