24 months, 531 days, I can’t believe that my fiance and I have been together for two years tomorrow! What an amazing two years they have been, we have been away together, we have been to see family, we have been to see friends, we have been abroad, we have been for day trips, we have been for car rides, we have gone walking, we have been cycling, we have made hundreds of cups of teas, we have watched TV, we have played games, we have got into new hobbies, we have exchanged thousands of texts, we have cooked hundreds of meals, we have been out for dinner, we have had late night conversations, we have had so many flowers, we have attended church, we have had events to go to, we have had ups and downs, we have stayed up late into the night, we have had troubles, we have had hospital visits, we have had doctors appointments and we have done so many things together both easy and hard. It has been a whirlwind of a couple of years but I am thankful and blessed for the fiance that sits by me at this time.
Two years together isn’t too long a time and we have had so many ups and downs but I wouldn’t change it for anything because I have a wonderful man beside me. During this period of being engaged we have been given so much advice, so many things that we should be doing, things that we shouldn’t and to be honest it has been so overwhelming as to what to take for ourselves to grow and develop our relationship and ourselves as people. Everyone told us that being engaged, planning a wedding and life will be hard and to be honest I didn’t really believe them. I didn’t think that the engagement period would be hard, I thought it would be easy with counselling and marriage prep but actually it has been totally different to what I would have thought. Not only did I think the engagement period wouldn’t be hard but we didn’t expect our wedding to be delayed, lock down to happen and disappointments!
Thanks to Covid-19 our wedding was cancelled, our family could not come over from abroad, our friends could not be here and we could not get married. It was a shock as seen as we should be celebrating our two years together as a newly married couple in our new house. Instead we are still engaged, waiting to live together, waiting for our marriage to happen, waiting for a celebration. I know that one day soon it will happen and we have to be patient but it has been hard to have this anniversary without us being married. I am so thankful and blessed for the past two years that we have been able to have together, the times that we have been be together, the times that we have been alone, the times when we have been on an adventure and the times when we have laughed our way through hard times.
I still cannot believe that we have been together for two years. I know it may sound stupid but looking back two years ago I was in such a different place, I was hurting myself, I was wanting to leave this life, I was in and out of hospital, I was having appointments, I had just been made redundant and I really didn’t think I had much to live for. That was until my now fiance asked me to be his girlfriend, my life came back to being, I felt accepted, I felt wanted, I felt like I had a purpose in life and I felt that someone wanted me for being me. It was such a life changing thing as I suddenly was drawn to this person and I didn’t want it to end and I am so thankful that it led to an engagement and soon a marriage. It was such a blessing that someone actually wanted me and was able to accept my baggage that come along with it-I am so thankful for him and his love for me.
Over that last two years times have been a bit harder than I thought they would be but I would not have it any other way because God has led me, He has protected me, He has helped me, He has given me someone in my life who is able to help me and to accept me for who I am. I know that things in life may get harder but I am able to turn to Him at anytime of the day and night. I know that through life I will be able to turn to God to help me with what is coming in life and I am blessed with this life that I live.