Blog 91: The miracle of me

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I have noticed that I am reaching a broader and more worldwide audience and I would like to thank you for your support and love as I continue on this blogging journey. As so many of you are new and it is almost my birthday I would like to tell you a little more about myself and how I came to be on the journey that I am now on. Blogging is a great way to tell your story and to be able to write all your feelings down as well as how you can help others and yourself to be better people.

So I was born in the north of England, Great Britain to parents who didn’t really know how to look after children. I was the middle child with an older sister and a younger brother. Due to complications and things that could harm me I was brought down south and have lived with my adoptive parents ever since. I have now been with them for coming up 21 years (this November). The first four years of my life was hard, there are things that I don’t want to go into as it scarred me and I don’t want it to do the same to you. Lets just say that the first four years of my life was not good and I couldn’t see a way out until my adoptive parents ‘rescued’ me from it. I am glad they are over and now I can focus on the future with a proper and supportive family by my side.

The two people from my first four years are not my parents and I do not have contact with anyone else from when I was below four years of age. The people that I call mum and dad now are my parents and I love them so much. I knew the meaning of adoption at a very young age and knew that I could be adopted into God’s family by trusting and believing in Jesus and the death and resurrection that He did for me. To this day I still find it wonderful that God would accept me, a foster child with all my baggage, a child that has been harmed, a child that has been emotional! Adoption is not only a physical thing but also an emotional thing and I am the daughter of the most high. I am the daughter of the king. I am the daughter of God.

After being 4 I realised how it was like to be loved and to love someone, I knew what playing was like, I knew how it was to be free, I knew how it was to be cared for, I knew how it was to have parents, I knew how it was to be safe. I didn’t know all of this before and my life took a turn for the better and I am so thankful for my parents taking me out of the situation that I was in. Over the last 21 years life has bought up its challenges, we have had high times, low times and very very low times. In 2006 I went to a different country and knew what is was like to have nothing. In 2012 I knew what it was like to loose someone close to me. This was the first time I experienced death and funerals and it was not fun. In 2018 I knew what it was like to love someone that I wanted to marry and I am going to marry in a couple of months. Over the years I have learnt so many lessons and I have learnt more about myself.

Over that last years I have grown and developed, slowly, into the person that I am happy with. It has not been an easy time with being diagnosed with different things and finding almost everything hard to do. Life has thrown in its curve balls and has sometimes resulted in trying to kill myself. I have learnt now that that is not the way to deal with it and I have learnt to talk about my feelings. I know as I get older life will be a bit harder and we will have our challenges but each trying time that we go through we will learn a lesson that we can use the next time. Each and everyday that I am alive now I am blessed and thankful that I was not able to end my life and I could marry the person and husband that I have today.

I am thankful that God has preserved me because I believe that He has something very special for me to do. I don’t know what that it and I don’t know when it will come but I will work towards it. Life may throw a spanner in the works and maybe hard but I know that in all things God is in charge and He will help me through every aspect in life. He will help me to grow the person that He wants me to be and He will help me each and everyday. I will continue on this blogging journey for as long as I can and all praise and glory be to God as He gave me life and when it is time He will take it away.

Please leave comments down below as to what you want to know about me and what other things you would like me to blog about.

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